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Fat Man Day 5

Fat Man Day 5

When I wrote on sales/psychology I had a quote that I liked to use that goes something like this: “A travelling salesman told me once that seeing is believing, trouble is that most people believe what they want and then go ahead and see it”.

Sitting here in my hallowed basement listening to the clothes dryer hum I am amazed at the awe that is life. I have a inner feeling of calm and gratitude with a high zing content but the dichotomy that is me is a two headed coin. For like any shinny dime I too have a flip side.

There’s an A4 sheet pinned to the wall in front of me that I copied from the Universe a few years ago and altered a little to fit in with my particular brain chemistry. This is it:

  • Most think that perception works like a flashlight in the dark, illuminating whatever it is aimed at.
  • The truth however is that instead of revealing what’s there, it creates it.

This might or might not be true but as you get to be older and wonder why things are the way they are within your being and within yourself as you play out within the world that you seem to be, logic appears to be screaming wake up fool, the writing is on the wall, just because you can’t see it doesn’t mean that it’s not there.

Not long after 911 and the invasion of Iraq a high ranking member of the Presidents staff told a reporter and I quote “We (the administration) speak reality into existence.”

The more aware I become the more I realize  that I have been living in a deluded slumber for most of my adult life, believing what suited me to be truth based reality.

The real truth is that there is no truth, there just is. And within that “isness” resides 6+ billion people all trying to survive, be liked and striving for that elusive happy moment, like a drunk forever searching for the buzz of a first drink.

Don’t waste your time looking for happiness in a job or a partner or even in wealth or success. If you are really serious about finding happiness then I’ll tell you where to find it. It’s waiting patiently for you like a blind date at the center of your being. Happiness is the one at the back table sporting the high zing content.

Anyway enough of this and back to the fat man.

I need a clap on the back, give me atrophy, give me a medal, for I who would be king of diners actually sat and watched as a full breakfast was consumed right before my covetous eyes and all I ordered was a coffee, black, no milk, no sugar, but that’s the way I always drink it.

What did the fat man eat this day; I journeyed out again so once again I packed a lunch, a boring lunch for a boring fat man on a boring mission.


  • 3 slices of rye bread 6p, 4 slices fiber one raisin bread, 2 slices of ham 2p, 2 plums 1p. Total 13p. There was only 3 slices of rye bread left in the fridge hence the uneven sandwich.


  • 1 cup of pasta (thin spaghetti) 4p, Chicken breast meat 2p. Total 6


  • Fiber one chocolate mocha bar 2p.


  • 1 slice of weight watchers rye 1/2 p, 1 slice of ham 1/2 p, tomato 0p. Total 1p

The lunch was ham and tomato on rye sandwiches, the rye bread was Arnold real Jewish rye and it is something else (if you like rye). The raisin bread I ate dry but hey it’s raisin bread it’s like cake and at 1p per slice it’s great calorie versus flavor value. And the peaches where hard juicy and tart, just the way I like them. This feast was washed down with tap water.

Dinner was chicken in homemade tomato sauce served on a bed of thin spaghetti. The sauce was a simple blend of zesty Mexican flavored tomatoes, half a small tin of tomato paste, 1 bullion cube, accompanies with summer squash and onion. Summer squash for the non US reader is as explained here. Summer squash is good but so too is zucchini, broccoli or whatever else you fancy that happens to be hanging round waiting to delight.

So my wife brought home some weight watchers rye and at 1/2 point a slice it fits really well into a calorie controlled diet. The flavor was lagging the Arnold variety but beggars can’t be choosers.

So here’s the deal, first I really like myself so over the years I have had the tendency to give myself anything my little tummy desired. Secondly though I may come across as overbearing and rigid the truth is that I’m fat and have a dangerously elevated cholesterol level. Overbearing rigid personalities seldom find themselves in this category.

However I am long enough in the tooth to know that the only way out is out and most people want to stay in so they resist.

Anyway as they have been known to say on Broadway. “Have a nice day now.”

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